Hazel is Sweet and my Sin is Not!

Hazel is Sweet
Hazel is such a sweetheart. I am enjoying her so very much. The rest of the family is as equally smitten. Hazel doesn't sleep much at night though, so I purchased a monitor and she's moved out of our room. It was a sad move, but time. Please don't misunderstand me, having a baby sleep through the night isn't the end-all, but I could tell that my lack of sleep was impacting my day... big. time. When I am unable to arouse for family devotions and I'm sleeping through breakfast, some course of action must be taken! I think the problem was that every time she stirred I'd get her up so that she wouldn't wake Jake, so that I wouldn't have to hear her fussing around in her bassinet, and mostly because it's so wonderful to hold that little bundle in my arms and snuggle. Enough is enough so, last night was the first night sans Hazel. She woke up at about 2, but I turned the monitor off for a while and she fell back asleep. When she stirred at 4 I gladly got up and fed her. Then it was back to bed for me and I was able to meet the family for bible time. Yay, yay, yay!

My Sin is Not Sweet
Last week was crazy around our home. We had two earthquakes which in my opinion were powerful. Also a hurricane, but to be honest after the earthquakes rattled my bones I wasn't so nervous about the hurricane. (Turns out the hurricane was far worse for many, many people and I'm thankful for God's mercy to us during the storm.) Back to my earthquake chatter... I discovered through God's Providence that it was good for me to experience an earthquake. It was good for me because it revealed something that I didn't know was lingering in my heart. I found that after the first earthquake came and went and then the second that I had developed a fear of the future. A mild torment was keeping me awake as I role-played in my mind what would happen if there was a BIG one. I was losing sleep because of this new fear and was praying and would lay there in my bleary eyed state asking God to help me sleep. When I spoke with Jake about it over the weekend, he was very helpful and corrective. I asked him if it was okay if I was afraid of another earthquake. He quickly answered, very lovingly, that no, it's not okay. As a matter of fact Scriptures are very clear that we aren't to be afraid. Consider this verse out of Proverbs:

25 Do not be afraid of sudden terror
or of the ruin of the wicked, when it comes,
26 for the Lord will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being caught.

Once I read the verses and considered what I was fretting about, I was convicted. We aren't to be afraid of sudden terror and then the mightiest blow, the Lord will be your confidence. Is the Lord my confidence? I asked forgiveness from the Lord and I'll tell you that I've had sweet sleep since that time, except for when Hazel wakes me of course.

So there you have it, a bit of Hazel and a bit of my sin.


CHiggins said...

Christie you are so awesome I Love you !!

Brittany Martin said...

How bizarre that your first earthquake happened in Virginia and not in California!

By the way, your baby girl has gorgeous eyes (but I'm sure you know that already).

Appollo Schloss said...

Thanks for sharing, it is so true. I can relate in both arenas..sin...and getting babies to sleep, sometimes when you aren't sleeping from one it is difficult not to assume it's not caused by the other. It's hard to think clearly when one is tired. . It's a blessing Jake came to the rescue of rational thinking.

I agree with Brittany it is kind of ironic that your fist quake didn't happen out west. I am glad all are well!

Karen said...

Like daddy said .. you are awesome. I love you ... sin and all.

john.reynolds1@mac.com said...

thanks Christie and good lesson for all of us.

john.reynolds1@mac.com said...

thanks Christie and good lesson for all of us.